lowly_slut Found it :)
LordMPofTMSR anyway, you don't know what irc is ?
lowly_slut no I actually don't. technology is the one area I don't have much knowledge in - which is definitely an issue considering it's 2018 lol
LordMPofTMSR lol. what do you do for a living ?
lowly_slut I'm a student, majoring in human biologyi and hoping to go to medical school
LordMPofTMSR i'm... ah, you don't know who i am huh.
lowly_slut oh I already did my internet searching trust me lol
lowly_slut but asking directly tends to get you good answers
LordMPofTMSR lol. so basically i lord over a buncha projects / people.
lowly_slut a hardcore, tech-savvy supervisor
LordMPofTMSR you know ?ii stuff sluts' nightmares are made of.
lowly_slut the best sluts have good dreams about the things normal people consider nightmares
LordMPofTMSR this is quite so.
LordMPofTMSR do you want to tell me some ?
lowly_slut my sexual dreams? I could write an entire saga.... probably longer than lord of the rings lol
LordMPofTMSR you ever read http://trilema.com/2017/mom/ ?
lowly_slut I haven't but I will now. love that you write
LordMPofTMSR there's really a lot on trilema ; once you're done with that, the continuation is http://trilema.com/love-in-an-elevator
LordMPofTMSR and i shall be off to town ; but if you're around later drop a line, we'll chat smore.
lowly_slut I'll be around. message me when you're free :)
lowly_slut love that story by the way. brutal gang bangs are on the top of my wishlist to try
LordMPofTMSR look at this :
LordMPofTMSR * lowly_slut has joined #trilema
LordMPofTMSR * lowly_slut has joined #trilema
LordMPofTMSR * lowly_slut has joined #trilema
LordMPofTMSR * lowly_slut has quit (Ping timeout: 260 seconds)
LordMPofTMSR stop doing that, it's stupid.
lowly_slut I know it is, I don't do it on purpose
LordMPofTMSR lol ok.iii
LordMPofTMSR aaanyway, what were we saying ?
lowly_slut I believe we were discussing sexual fantasies
LordMPofTMSR ah right, you were going to tell me some of yours.
lowly_slut Honestly, it's easier to explain what I *don't* like because I'm very interested in a lot of things
lowly_slut I'll try pretty much anything twice
LordMPofTMSR but you also have ~0 experience irl ?
lowly_slut I have ~23% experience
LordMPofTMSR ahahaah what the fuck. what did you divide to get that figure ?
lowly_slut wellll I figure I have a lot more experience than someone with none, but it felt overzealous to say I had experienced a quarter of things yet....but I've also tried a lot. so 23
LordMPofTMSR they don't teach you statistics in biology anymore ?
lowly_slut would you like a normal distribution curve so I can approximate that number using my calculus skills? lol
LordMPofTMSR "i tried 391 out of the 1700 things there are to try" is how you get 23%.
LordMPofTMSR and if it's 39 out of 170 you don't have 23%, you have 20%. because significance is a thing. yes ?
LordMPofTMSR the significance of your number is, wait for it... 0.
lowly_slut in the grand scheme of everything I'd like to experience, its significant to 0
LordMPofTMSR were you ever naked on the street ?
LordMPofTMSR at a club/bar/party ?
lowly_slut nope, I have started going to a swingers party, but I've never been nude in a typically vanilla environment
lowly_slut well actually
lowly_slut there was this party in high school where everyone dropped acid and I was naked the entire night.... so *Technically*
LordMPofTMSR lol ok.
LordMPofTMSR what's "started going to a swingers party" mean, you're not even married ?!
lowly_slut swingers party as in a group sex environment. maybe the terminology is distinctly different, is it?
LordMPofTMSR swingers means married people getting together to exchange partners. it's a... 1950s airforce/suburbia thing, mostly.
lowly_slut gotcha. well this is just an orgy party loliv
LordMPofTMSR aaanyway. ever had sex with someone not your age / from your environment / however you politely say "as dumb as you in the same exact ways" ?
lowly_slut as dumb as myself?v
LordMPofTMSR you know what fashions are, right ? like how everyone in the 70s had the ridiculous hair ? and the pants ?
lowly_slut yes trends
LordMPofTMSR ok. ever had sex with anyone who wasn't in your own cultural bubble.
LordMPofTMSR wanna tell me about it ?
lowly_slut well.... I fucked one of the professors at my college. not my own - I don't need to fuck for a grade, but yeah I liked his position so I fucked him
LordMPofTMSR did he teach you anything ?
LordMPofTMSR i don't mean, in his subject matter.
lowly_slut the professor? he didn't teach me anything really but fucking him somewhat ignited a sexual revolution I was/am still going through. Basically I want every experience I can get
lowly_slut I also had a little stint talking to this one guy who loved watching me fuck BBC. I was raised in a very suburbia, upper middle class white area, so going to the ghetto and taking bbc from older black men with a much lower vocabulary than mine was an experience
LordMPofTMSR did you do a lot of that ?
lowly_slut I fucked 5 BBC's for him and filmed everything
LordMPofTMSR why ?
lowly_slut because I'm kinky as hell and want to try everything
LordMPofTMSR did anything interesting come of that ? personally i mean.
lowly_slut yes. I wasn't attracted to black men at all before that, now I love getting fucked by BBC lol
lowly_slut definitely led to a great change of mindset
LordMPofTMSR that's rather impersonal, isn't it ?
lowly_slut well what do you have in mind as being personal?
LordMPofTMSR you ever seen glengarry glenn ross ? the movie ?
lowly_slut no I haven't
LordMPofTMSR ah. well, pacino has a few great lines in them, one of which being, "the fucking's not generally what you remember of the great lays you might have had. but some noise the broad made, the way she held her arm..."
lowly_slut well... I don't know. all the meetings were very impersonal honestly... I wasn't interested in sticking around or getting to know them
LordMPofTMSR why not ?
lowly_slut I'm not attracted to anything other than their cocks and what the dynamic represents..... so I'm not really trying to cuddle and talk much lol
LordMPofTMSR what does the dynamic "represent" ?
lowly_slut I like being a little white slut that takes huge black cock. If we really wanna dig deep we can talk about how it represents a flip in social norms, talk about how it represents true dominance - black man destroying the white girl that would've oppressed him 60 years ago during Jim Crowe USA. Where I grew up, there's still some racism too and even though I consider myself quite progressive, I was around a lot of people th
lowly_slut I'm not supposed to be fucking them. white people are "above" them (not true but some people still believe it)
lowly_slut so it like feeling like a dirty slut being taken raw by people some of society view as below me
LordMPofTMSR eh get out, destroying my foot. it's not made of soap, you know.
LordMPofTMSR all this is so much esltard wank.
LordMPofTMSR a sec
LordMPofTMSR here : trilema.com/republican-thesaurus/
lowly_slut so english as a single language combined with retarded?
lowly_slut so I sound too american?
lowly_slut these are obviously new terms to me
LordMPofTMSR you know how populations stuck on islands degenerate ? just so culturally, provincial peoples degenerate, end up with these highly wrought piles of nonsense.
LordMPofTMSR i don't think you're too american, for one thing america is where i live, you knowvi ? but i do think the people you're around are pretty... how shall we put it... narrowminded ?
lowly_slut lol you can say that again. my immediate friends and nuclear family are quite openminded but the community I was raised in isn't
lowly_slut I live in mid-michigan. you can imagine.. it's quite narrow-mindedvii
LordMPofTMSR but this entire "bbc" that as-fucking-if "destroys" bla bla, is just wank of a different color. as if instead of a red lampshade you put a yellow lampshade. same fucking lamp.
lowly_slut that's a very fair statement
LordMPofTMSR and i think it's a little bit wasteful to fuck some guy you don't even talk to. because who knows, maybe the black guy some retard reduced and repackaged for you as "bbc" had something actually meaningful to say to you.
LordMPofTMSR if you but listened to the guy you're fucking instead of some rando maniac ranting and raving behind imaginary cameras on a set that only he can see.
lowly_slut lol somehow you understand my situation without me even needed to explain it
LordMPofTMSR i am known for this.
lowly_slut i think it was important for me to learn how to fuck without any connection however. useful skill to have
LordMPofTMSR no dispute.
LordMPofTMSR but anyway, free bit of advice from guy you ran into on the internets, whether he somehow understands your situation without your even needed to explain it or not :
LordMPofTMSR the principal problem for you is running into idiots masquerading as doms.
LordMPofTMSR i have known girls with a lot of baggage as a result of rando idiots pretending their abusive nonsense is bdsm.
LordMPofTMSR generally, they're 23-25 ; when they were your age they i expect they sounded a lot more like you.
lowly_slut my most recent experience was definitely that scenario
LordMPofTMSR how did that go ?
LordMPofTMSR what, you're bad at storytelling or something ? go ahead, let's hear.
lowly_slut started with a guy on fet saying he's the guy in http://www.wired.com/2014/01/openbsd/
LordMPofTMSR ahahaha what!
lowly_slut ended awfully
lowly_slut it's embarrassing but I totally got catfished. I'm a smart girl, but this guy was an absolute psychopath. he toyed me along for like 2 months and he spun an extremely good story
lowly_slut but I also wanted it to be real so I was more inclined to believe the good and ignore the bad
lowly_slut but I fucked 5 bbcs for him, listened to everything he asked of me, filmed everything and sent it to him, only to be stood up because he wasn't who he said he was. It was impulsive and now that I'm typing it out makes me sound like the dumbest girl out there, but you know how manipulative people can be
lowly_slut and he was older, experienced, offered me money, and was kinky and was helping me explore things i wanted. it was the type of relationship I've realized I very much want, and so yeah a lot o factors played a role as to why I was so gullible
LordMPofTMSR so you fucked some guys, not the end of the world.viii
lowly_slut it bothers me that I was lied to, and knowing that those videos with my face in it are out there. It's probably fine, but what it, you know?
LordMPofTMSR from what you're describing odds are you'd hurt him more by publishing them yourself lmao.
LordMPofTMSR the sort tends to treasure the items. anyways.
lowly_slut especially because I still need to get into graduate school and eventually a residency program. obviously he's a psycho so what would stop him from going one step further and posting everything somewhere?
LordMPofTMSR i wouldn't be too worried about it, i don't know anyone who's anyone and would seriously hold stag against a girl.
LordMPofTMSR now the opposite, "eh, she doesn't even have sex tapes" as a put-down, now that i heard plenty of times.
lowly_slut but yeah he's probably fat and old and will probably just wank to them forever, which is fine - he outsmarted me he deserves the fruits of his labor. as long as they're kept private lol
LordMPofTMSR and if they're public what ?
LordMPofTMSR you've seen buncha girls on my profile, not like they died from it.
lowly_slut but he was quite manipulative and I knew it wasn't proper BDSM but i went along with it because the person he was impersonating was hot as hell lol
LordMPofTMSR was this on fetlife ?
lowly_slut met him on fetlife yes
LordMPofTMSR but i mean... how do you mean impersonate ?
LordMPofTMSR that didn't enlighten me...
lowly_slut google images, instagram, knowing your lie inside and out, and being a psychopath all help
lowly_slut we talked almost daily for almost 3 months. that's just cruel.
lowly_slut internet people are craaaazy
lowly_slut this person catfished as their passion, they invested time into the process
LordMPofTMSR i never heard anything like this from a fetgirl before.
lowly_slut well I'm young and naive i suppose
LordMPofTMSR reasonably rare, i talk to a lot.
lowly_slut but I'm not stupid. I'm quite intelligent actually, which is why I'm so disappointed and surprised in myself
LordMPofTMSR i can tell.
lowly_slut and frustrated
LordMPofTMSR cuz stuck in shittygan ?
lowly_slut no one plays me like this and gets away with it irl lol
lowly_slut being stuck in shittygan as well lol. beautiful state buuuuuut I'm moving to a city for med school
LordMPofTMSR ah right, how about moving over here for a coupla weeks ?
lowly_slut you never know ;D
LordMPofTMSR of course... my interests don't really run towards gangbangs and such.
lowly_slut what are your interests?
LordMPofTMSR obedient girls, basically. the smarter the better.
lowly_slut obedience is sexy
LordMPofTMSR but! you may be too young to be enslaved, honestly.
lowly_slut I want a master because I want to learn to be more obedient. I've always had issues with being impulsive, and blindly driven by my strong emotions
lowly_slut why do you say that? I agree, but why do you say
LordMPofTMSR yes but listen, you're not even 20 yet. there's maybe some stupid you still gotta get out of your system ?
lowly_slut honestly..... got a lot of stupid out in my early days. I'm much more composed than many 19 year old girls
lowly_slut had many more experiencesix
LordMPofTMSR well be that as it may, it won't be discerned over the internets anyways.
lowly_slut I don't need to do stupid things other kids my age are doing because I was the crazy kid that did that at 13/14
lowly_slut but i still have some left in me of course, I'm very young
LordMPofTMSR generally it's "come for a coupla weeks, if i like you you may stay". in your case it's more like "come for a coupla weeks, we'll have fun and if you truly really want it... ill think about it"
lowly_slut it would be interesting
lowly_slut but I'm also not a drop everything for a life of sexual slavery kinda girl
LordMPofTMSR you'd be in a proper house though, no bs.
LordMPofTMSR you'd have to behave.
lowly_slut i would love to experience that environment
lowly_slut it would be extremely interesting
LordMPofTMSR would it ?
lowly_slut yes I've always wanted to see how a "proper" BDSM household operates. I think it would be interesting. even if I don't enjoy it I would highly revere the experience
LordMPofTMSR because even senior girls can get in trouble and end up with a few red welts on their backside in short order. it's pretty intense
lowly_slut that does sound a little scary, in all honesty, but that's what makes me intrigued
LordMPofTMSR that said, i don't expect i'm very typical, in all honestly. not that such a thing as "typical" exists outside of faker-fanfic.
LordMPofTMSR but generally i'd guess i'm a lot more relaxed than most.
LordMPofTMSR well yes.
lowly_slut the breaking in period...seems as though it would be a lot
lowly_slut I'm sure you have to bring down a heavy hand at first, to establish yourself no?
lowly_slut well that's nice to hear lol
LordMPofTMSR you'll do most of that for me yourself, why should i be bothered.
What can I say, "accept no substitutes" ?!———
- You know biology students seem to work quite well ? [↩]
- Tech savy, you hear that ? I hope we understand each otherrrrr!!111 [↩]
- What'd you have said, o ye technologically savy folk ? Hm ? [↩]
- Because what they do these days for "swinger parties" is, everyone hires a whore and they show up with their "partners" to "exchange". Most escorts even have specific tariffs for this service in their little book. All hail the mass culture.
By the way, remember back when "progress" was "consensus" and so the only way anyone ever denoted The Republic was by presuming it is the avant-garde of the place the fucktarded dullards are all headed eventually anyway ? What a sickening way of looking at things! [↩]
- It stings, because imagine this wonder -- nobody told her before she's fucking stupid. The only true lot of infancy, childhood and adolescence, sheer and unmitigated idiocy, and nobody diagnosed it for her. Not ever.
You are remiss in your duty and derelict of life! [↩]
- It's a continent. The United States dangles off the side of it like stinky dangles off the underside of donkey. [↩]
- I can't imagine, because counterexamples I won't go into the details of are all I know. [↩]
- Can you believe this insane shit, by the way ? [↩]
- And she also dropped the percentiles, just to humor me! [↩]