7:26 PM
lilyblush's Writing 21F Switch New York City, New York

People wonder why I stay in my jail cell when the door’s wide open.

I wish my brain would stop thinking thoughts. I wish my heart would stop feeling so many things.

Imprisonment is boring, especially that of the self-imposed variety, but it is a strange dichotomy of sitting in once place to escape the outside world’s perils. At least when I’m there, I know what to prepare myself for. At least when I’m there, I only have my own demons to deal with.

It seems like I’m more receptive to the idea of boredom than pain. I’ll take choking on stagnant air if it means I don’t have to go back to being hurt out there.

Chick's conventionally hot, in the instagram sense of conventionally, but...

Truth is nobody wants them. Starting with they themselves. Thirty years of free food and free hugs have produced... more extras, that don't really even wanna be here.

Moreover, what's the big fucking deal with Bidden winning? Not like it does anything. It doesn't matter, it's a fucking banana republic, nobody cares, nothing going on there has any sort of greater impact or substantial influence, it's good for the tabloid interest and my vehehery occasional comedy gold mining expeditions, but otherwise it makes entirely no difference. If "the democrats", whatever that even fucking means are willing to continue the trend they started last decade with that deplorable monkey, "first ever black president" also turned out the worst president in recorded history by adding an "oldest president in history" that also happens to have been fraudulently elected... what's the big deal ? Let 'em have it, and wash their head with it, why the hell not ?

Not that Trump automatically has to give up because I say so. Not like his incentives are aligned sanely anyways. But... whatever, let him have his fun, he can wait around for four years as the grossly defrauded should-have-won, then next cycle when he's 114 too or whatever absurd age's nowadays the cutoff he can win his second term and die in office so some black chick who can't earn it on her own merits (lol, what merits ?!) can inherit the presidency. That's how women ruined civilisation, after all. Or whatever, maybe he prefers Latinas or whatever those fuglies he keeps going out with are.

They did do it, so there's now a good million+ unemployable, impoverished, socially isolated (but "social media influencing") gen-Yers fully exposed to legal prosecution for electoral fraud, which could in principle yield a coupla years in the can a head (this is before anyone notices RICO readily applies, putting in principle everyone in any capacity involved with the Democratic Party in the same boat as eg teh Teflon Don). What exactly comes of it is... well... it could be for their own sanitary protection, rite? Free masks in jale!