Disgrace - At first they do not
At first they do not recognize him. He is halfway down the stairs before he hears the cry That's him! followed by a scuffle of feet. They catch up with him at the foot of the stairs; one even grabs at his jacket to slow him down.
'Can we talk to you just for a minute, Professor Lurie?' says a voice.
He ignores it, pressing on into the crowded lobby, where people turn to stare at the tall man hurrying from his pursuers. Someone bars his way. 'Hold it!' she says. He averts his face, stretches out a hand. There is a flash. A girl circles around him. Her hair, plaited with amber beads, hangs straight down on either side of her face. She smiles, showing even white teeth. 'Can we stop and speak?' she says.
A tape recorder is thrust toward him. He pushes it away. 'About how it was,' says the girl.
'How what was?'
The camera flashes again.
'You know, the hearing.'
'I can't comment on that.'
'Ok, so what can you comment on?'
'There is nothing I want to comment on.'
The loiterers and the curious have begun to crowd around. If he wants to get away, he will have to push through them. 'Are you sorry?' says the girl. The recorder is thrust closer. Do you regret what you did?'
'No,' he says. 'I was enriched by the experience.'
The smile remains on the girl's face. 'So would you do it again?'
'I don't think I will have another chance.'
'But if you had a chance?'
'Counterfactuals aren't very interesting questions.'
She wants more, more words for the belly of the little machine, but for the moment is at a loss for how to suck him into further indiscretion.
'He was what by the experience?' he hears someone ask sotto voce. 'He was enriched.'
There is a titter.
'Ask him if he apologized,' someone calls to the girl.
'I already asked.'
Confessions, apologies: why this thirst for abasement? A hush falls. They circle around him like hunters who have cornered a strange beast and do not know how to finish it off. The photograph appears in the next day's student newspaper, above the caption 'Who's the Dunce Now?' It shows him, eyes cast up to the heavens, reaching out a groping hand toward the camera. The pose is ridiculous enough in itself, but what makes the picture a gem is the inverted waste-paper basket that a young man, grinning broadly, holds above him. By a trick of perspective the basket appears to sit on his head like a dunce's hat. Against such an image, and the happy producers and consumers of such images, what chance has he?
'Committee tight-lipped on verdict,' reads the headline. 'The disciplinary committee investigating charges of harassment and misconduct against Communications Professor David Lurie was tight-lipped yesterday on its verdict. Chair Manas Mathabane would say only that its findings have been forwarded to the Rector for action.'
'Sparring verbally with members of WAR after the hearing, Lurie (53) said he had found his experiences with women students "enriching".'
'Trouble first erupted when complaints against Lurie, an expert on romantic poetry, were filed by students in his classes.' He has a call at home from Mathabane. 'The committee has passed on its recommendation, David, and the Rector has asked me to get back to you one last time. He is prepared not to take extreme measures, he says, on condition that you issue a statement in your own person which will be satisfactory from our point of view as well as yours.'
'Manas, we have been over that ground. I - '
'Wait. Hear me out. I have a draft statement before me which would satisfy our requirements. It is quite short. May I read it to you?'
'If you must.'
Mathabane reads: 'I acknowledge without reservation serious abuses of the human rights of the complainant, as well as abuse of the authority delegated to me by the University. I sincerely apologize to both parties and accept whatever appropriate penalty may be imposed.'
'"Whatever appropriate penalty": what does that mean?'
'My understanding is, you will not be dismissed. In all probability, you will be requested to take a leave of absence. Whether you eventually return to teaching duties will depend on yourself, and on the decision of your Dean and head of department.'
'That is it? That is the package?'
'That is my understanding. If you signify that you subscribe to the statement, which will have the status of a plea in mitigation, the Rector will be prepared to accept it in that spirit.'
'In what spirit?'
'A spirit of repentance.'
'Manas, we went through the repentance business yesterday. I told you what I thought. I won't do it. I appeared before an officially constituted tribunal, before a branch of the law. Before that secular tribunal I pleaded guilty, a secular plea. That plea should suffice. Repentance is neither here nor there. Repentance belongs to another world, to another universe of discourse.'
'You are confusing issues, David. You are not being instructed to repent. What goes on in your soul is dark to us, as members of what you call a secular tribunal if not as fellow human beings. You are being asked to issue a statement.'
'I am being asked to issue an apology about which I may not be sincere?'
'The criterion is not whether you are sincere. That is a matter, as I say, for your own conscience. The criterion is whether you are prepared to acknowledge your fault in a public manner and take steps to remedy it.'
'Now we are truly splitting hairs. You charged me, and I pleaded guilty to the charges. That is all you need from me.'
'No. We want more. Not a great deal more, but more. I hope you can see your way clear to giving us that.'
'The only statement I will subscribe to includes clear verbiage enummerating the utter failure of the whole University to educate any children, including an apology for all the fraudulent degrees it has issued, which is all of them. I will only subscribe to a statement of the Rector apologizing for being the Rector, and showing clear and credible repentance for the travesty he presides over. And feel free to throw your name in there also, I have no idea how you can go around touching telephones after that sangoma panel you presided yesterday.'
'David, I can't go on protecting you from yourself. I am tired of it, and so is the rest of the committee. Do you want time to rethink?'
'Very well. Then I can only say, you will be hearing from the Rector.'
Once he made up his mind to leave, there is little to really hold him back. He clears out the refrigerator, locks up the house, and at noon is on the freeway. A stopover in Oudtshoorn, a crack-of-dawn departure: by mid-morning he is nearing his destination, the town of Salem on the Grahamstown-Kenton road in the Eastern Cape.
His daughter's smallholding is at the end of a winding dirt track some miles outside the town: five hectares of land, most of it arable, a wind-pump, stables and outbuildings, and a low, sprawling farmhouse painted yellow, with a galvanized-iron roof and a covered stoep. The front boundary is marked by a wire fence and clumps of nasturtiums and geraniums; the rest of the front is dust and gravel.
There is an old VW kombi parked in the driveway; he pulls up behind it. From the shade of the stoep Lucy emerges into the sunlight. For a moment he does not recognise her. A year has passed, and she has put on weight. Her hips and breasts are now (he searches for the best word) ample. Comfortably barefoot, she comes to greet him, holding her arms wide, embracing him, kissing him on the cheek. What a nice girl, he thinks, hugging her; what a nice welcome at the end of a long trip!
The house, which is large, dark, and, even at midday, chilly, dates from the time of large families, of guests by the wagonful. Six years ago Lucy moved in as a member of a commune, a tribe of young people who peddled leather goods and sunbaked pottery in Grahamstown and, in between stands of mealies, grew dagga. When the commune broke up, the rump moving on to New Bethesda, Lucy stayed behind on the smallholding with her friend Helen. She had fallen in love with the place, she said; she wanted to farm it properly. He helped her buy it. Now here she is, flowered dress, bare feet and all, in a house full of the smell of baking, no longer a child playing at farming but a solid countrywoman, a boervrou.
'I'm going to put you in Helen's room,' she says. 'It gets the morning sun. You have no idea how cold the mornings have been this winter.'
'How is Helen?' he asks. Helen is a large, sad-looking woman with a deep voice and bad skin, older than Lucy. He has never been able to understand what Lucy sees in her; privately he wishes Lucy would find, or be found by, someone better.
'Helen has been back in Johannesburg since April. I've been alone, aside from the help.'
'You didn't tell me that. Aren't you nervous by yourself?'
Lucy shrugs. 'There are the dogs. Dogs still mean something. The more dogs, the more deterrence. Anyhow, if there were to be a break-in, I don't see that two people would be better than one.'
'That's very philosophical.'
'Yes. When all else fails, philosophize.'
'But you have a weapon.'
'I have a rifle. I'll show you. I bought it from a neighbour. I haven't ever used it, but I have it.'
'Good. An armed philosopher. I approve.'
Dogs and a gun; bread in the oven and a crop in the earth. Curious that he and her mother, cityfolk, intellectuals, should have produced this throwback, this sturdy young settler. But perhaps it was not they who produced her: perhaps history had the larger share. She offers him tea. He is hungry: he wolfs down two blocklike slices of bread with prickly-pear jam, also home-made. He is aware of her eyes on him as he eats. He must be careful: nothing so distasteful to a child as the workings of a parent's body.
Her own fingernails are none too clean. Country dirt: honourable, he supposes. He unpacks his suitcase in Helen's room. The drawers are empty; in the huge old wardrobe there is only a blue overall hanging. If Helen is away, it is not just for a while. Lucy takes him on a tour of the premises. She reminds him about not wasting water, about not contaminating the septic tank. He knows the lesson but listens dutifully. Then she shows him over the boarding kennels. On his last visit there had been only one pen. Now there are five, solidly built, with concrete bases, galvanized poles and struts, and heavy-gauge mesh, shaded by young bluegum trees. The dogs are excited to see her: Dobermanns, German Shepherds, ridgebacks, bull terriers, Rottweilers.
'Watchdogs, all of them,' she says. 'Working dogs, on short contracts: two weeks, one week, sometimes just a weekend. The pets tend to come in during the summer holidays.'
'And cats? Don't you take cats?'
'Don't laugh. I'm thinking of branching into cats. I'm just not set up for them yet.'
'Do you still have your stall at the market?'
'Yes, on Saturday mornings. I'll take you along.'
This is how she makes a living: from the kennels, and from selling flowers and garden produce. Simple as it could ever get, nothing in the world could be any less contrived.
On to the next chapter, "Don't the dogs get..."
Friday, 2 October 2020
> serious abuses of the human rights of the complainant
The concept of "human rights" exists, both historically and substantially, as protection for the individual -- and strictly the individual -- against insult by organized mediocrity, historically various camarillas but substantially these days any of the few flavours of socialism.
Thus, whenever a person stands accused, the "human rights" of the putative victim can not form any part of the discussion ; whereas whenever human rights are a concern, whichever socialism pretends to relevancy in the space, and only it, will stand accused.